Happy Father’s Day Abbu

I can’t blog anymore. Because all I can think of now is making money through blogs and this very reason has limited my blogging skills to a horrifying great extend. Now when I think about writing a new post, I don’t think about my readers or myself or the passion that forces us to blog. I just think about keywords, ad positioning and such stupid earthly things witch cause me nothing but failure.

Today when I first sat down to write a post about Father’s day, I was trying too hard to engage the guests that I forgot the most important thing about writing this post. I mean, I lost my father when I was just 11 years of age. This post should reflect my sadness, my respect and my anger. This should not be a medium to gain or lose anything else.

Happy father’s day abbu. I wish you were here today. I wish you could see that how fast I can type now without looking at the keyboard. It would be great to have you around when I first launched my website, when I first held a paycheck in my hands. Hell, I missed you when my board exam results were published, missed you on my first day at university. I miss you every year on Eid day when I see someone spending time with their father. I usually cry when I see a father in a movie saying to his son “I am proud of you, son”. I never had the chance to hear these words from you.

I hated you so much when you were alive; you were so harsh to me sometimes. But now I miss you like crazy. I wish I could see you once again, I wish I could talk to you again; hold you tightly in my arms one last time. Why can’t we understand the value of things, until it’s too late?

I wish you were here with us, for us. Happy father’s day…

Also posted on my community website: JU Buzz

Life as I know it: First Anniversary

It gives me great joy to share with you that this is the first anniversary of my blog Life as i know it.

It seems like yesterday when I was just trying to open a blog for my thoughts to stuff in. I can remember how my posts looked like back then. It is amazing to see how it has evolved. I feel very sorry for trying to quit blogging at the end of last year. It was really a stupid dilemma for me. I am glad that I was able to get over that.

Thank you for sticking to Life as i know it and I hope your love for this blog will never fade away.

Summer Vacation: Utilized Properly

So, the one month long summer vacation has ended at last. This was the only summer vacation when I could spend time as I wanted, not how the school or college wanted. That’s why it was a lot more fun. But more importantly, this was the first vacation that I utilized properly and beyond my expectations.

In this year I wasn’t quite able to spend as much time in blogging as I should. And this fact was bothering me a lot. So I decided to spend this vacation solely to blogging. I made a list of goals and what I had to do to achieve those at the very beginning of the vacation. Due to various reasons my readership along with the traffic rating had declined to a depressing stage. I had to do something to change this. Below I’m pointing out the things I wanted to do.

1. I knew I had to change the design of my blog. MrsBlog also helped me a lot to get started (thank you). So I made some necessary blog improvements which have made my blog look more professional. Also adopted some easy but essential SEO.

2. To retrieve the flow of traffic and faithful readership, I had to start posting regularly again. My primary goal was to post 2 articles a week. But I ended up posting 3 per week. That resulted in an almost 90% increase in the number of daily visitors.

3. So that I don’t fall in the hands of blogger’s block again, I decided to write some back-up posts. These posts will work as a ladder to get over blogger’s block.

I’m very happy to see how things have turned out to be.

Set up goals to maximize the benefit

I recommend that you also set up short term and long term goals. But don’t just sit there after writing the goals. Try to write down how you are going to achieve those goals and work hard to turn that into reality. Best of luck.

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Sorry for the Late Reply

My home’s internet connection has been out for the last 8 days (I’m in my department’s computer lab now). So I was unable to entertain my readers by replying their comments and visiting their blogs. I hope that today the net problem will be fixed and I’ll be able to do what is due.

Once again, truly sorry for the late reply. I really hope that it doesn’t happen again.

Peace and best wishes
Irtiza104

Dear Mother

Sorry mom. I’m sorry for not being able to gather the courage to go to you and tell you “I love you mom”. I am sorry for being such a bad son. I am sorry for causing you so much pain. I am sorry for forgetting that “family comes first”. Sorry for being so selfish.

Happy Mother’s Day.

Irtiza104
May 10, 2009

Hi Everyone

It has been almost one and a half month since my last post (4 months since a REAL post). How are you all? I am hoping to get back to blogging.

A lot has been going on in my life for the last couple of months. My dreams are now temporarily shattered as I was rejected from the Bangladesh Army. After everything I’ve done they just handed me a piece of paper which basically contained these words “You are not fit for Bangladesh Armed Forces”.

I have been hoping to join the army as officer for so long that the rejection was great shock to me. I’ve spent so much time chasing this dream that after it was broken, I don’t know what else to think, what else to do. Suddenly the future seems to be very uncertain and unknown.

Yes, I admit that I’ve made some wrong moves during the 4 day long selection process- ISSB, which may have caused my rejection. But still, it’s a hard thing to swallow. Almost every night I am having nightmares about it…

But I will not stop. I am going to try out for Bangladesh Army again. Confidence level is a little lower though…

On the other hand, I have admitted myself in Jahangirnagar University as an under-grad student and my subject is Business Administration. I’ve spent 19 years of my life in J. U. campus and I fear that I’ll have to spend here at least another 5 years. Oh…

Anyways, it’s good to be back here. See you soon.

Just Another Day at the Office

Today is the International Mother Language Day. But I don't think that many people know about it. On this day on 1952 Bangladesh faught and claimed the right to speak in their mother tongue BANGLA...

Who else has this honour?

Crossroads

Have you ever felt like you need to talk to someone but you don't have anyone who would really listen to what you have to say?

I don't know why I find peace in this picture. How are you all? It's been a long time since my last post.

Peace

Farewell

I guess this was inevitable. For five months I have been pretending to be someone who I never can be. I am not a blogger. I don’t belong here. It took me five months and 65 posts to realize.

I had a fun time here I got to admit. I never thought that I’d get this much response from my readers. The thing I’ll always remember is that I actually won a prize for blogging. It felt great.

Thanks to timethief… a wonderful blogger and a great person. My mental condition is just not fit for blogging. Sorry.

Angry young man
Irtiza104

Life as i know it : Open for Suggestions

Dear readers,

As you all can see there’s no particular niche for my blog. I write about almost anything worth blogging. As it has its own benefits, is has MANY disadvantages also. One of the main problems I face due to not having a particular niche is that I often can’t decide which subject to write on.

I often have to be faced with this very hard decision- should I write on poverty, or should I ‘try’ to promote peace by writing a meaningful post? Should I spend a little time on writing about the environment, or should I go forward writing about health and self improvement? Or is it the time now to brag about my very own personal life?

In this dilemma I often find myself not posting for days. I strongly believe that I take blogging seriously and this ‘not posting’ thing puts stress and a little depression on me. So it gets even harder to concentrate…

So now, I have come to this understanding that I need the opinion and the help of my readers and friends. So from now on I’ll request you to suggest me a subject, any subject (related to L.A.I.K.I.) that you would like to see on my blog. I think by this L.A.I.K.I. can interact more with its readers and turn this simple blog in a happy and healthy community. It's a huge step for Life as i know it and I really hope to get your help.

Peace
Irtiza104

P.S. Moreover it would be a little more challenging for me and I love challenges :D


*L.A.I.K.I. - Life as i know it

Let It Go Away

This post was influenced by TimeThief’s great post Do You Love Yourself?

I think to move ahead in life it’s very important to let go of certain things. Punishing yourself for the same things over and over again is -above all- unfair to you.

No human life is perfect. We make mistakes, don’t we? Over the past few years I’ve done some terrible things which I can never be proud of. I have taken some difficult decisions which I could have avoided. It’s not like that the choices I had were any less hard.

It’s very important to seek forgiveness- not from others but from your own inner-self. Forgive yourself and just let it go. If you can change the consequences of the past activities, then great. But if you can’t, don’t bother too much. Let go the anger you are holding in from your rough childhood. Let go the burden of shame that haunts you. Let it go. And be strong. Be strong to make sure that the same sh*t never happens to you again.

Accept yourself for who you are, not for who you wanted to be. Be true to yourself. Love yourself. If admitting is the first step towards self improvement and forgiving is the second, loving yourself and letting go should be the third…atleast in my opinion.

You Have Been Tagged

I have been tagged by Christine who authors The humble Pen. Basically the tagging thing is a way to promote the (seven) blogs you like by mentioning their names in your blog. Being tagged also means that you have to share 7 random facts about yourself.

So here it goes…

1. I have changed my name 2 times. From Asif M. Irtiza to A. Irtiza Hussain to Asif Irtiza Hussain (my current identity)

2. I have been living in this campus for almost 19 years and I want to get out from this place but I don’t think I’d be able to do that.

3. I think and worry (?) a lot.

4. I used to sketch. I don’t sketch now coz someone thought they were childish.

5. I am probably suffering from insomniac

6. I hate my college days.

7. I love my little brother with all my heart, more than anyone in this whole universe.


Now it’s time to name seven of my favorite blogs on the net.

Kikolani | poetry, photography, blogging tips and more
This Time ~ This Space
Nomadic Wisdom
My Life in Italy
The Melindaville Blog
Thoughts of a Girl
~Megher Onek Rong~

You have been Tagged.

*Update: A little while earlier i just received another award from Me-Me King "The Lemonade Award- Makin' Lemonade from Lemons!". AS a result i have to nominate my favorite blogs for this award. I'd like to nominate the blogs mentioned above. Peace...

My Little Warrior

One Little Milestone Achieved

A sense of achievement has filled me as I have completed posting 50 posts on this blog. It may not seem much to the more experienced bloggers of the blogosphere, it’s a great achievement for me.

It took four months to reach this milestone. Though this month hasn’t been that good for my ‘blogging career’ I am still pretty happy with how thing are going. I’m fortunate to have some wonderful readers.

In these 50 posts my favorite post is Let’s Open Our Eyes. It’s written on poverty- thanks to BlogActionDay. Though I think that the second half of this post can be made a little better this is by far my most favorite post and the respond from my readers is also very good.

Still a long way to go…

Thanking you
Irtiza

P.S.

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there's some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening by Robert Frost.

I'll Be Back

I am really sorry for the lack of posts lately. I have been (and still am) really busy with university/army admission. I just can’t concentrate on blogging right now. But I promise I’ll get back to blogging as soon as I can.

Please don’t forget my existence in the meantime.

Peace
Irtiza

Some Random Sketches

I am Just a beginner. So please... don't laugh!!!

What are You Grateful for Today?

It has been raining for 3 days now. It’s really chilly and windy outside. So I guess the winter is finally here. I don’t know why but every year winter seems to come with this kind of rain.

It’s really hard to go outside in this weather. I am really fortunate to have a solid roof over my head. At least I have the warmth of my home to come to. But what about the millions of people who are spending their lives in streets? I wonder what they are doing now.

Sometimes a little comparison is necessary to be content, to be grateful. My fellow blogger Ann asked me “What are you grateful for today?” That day I couldn’t answer this question right away.

Today the answer could be something like this-
1. I don’t have to spend the night outside in the cold.
2. I don’t have to get wet as I have a roof over my head.
3. I won’t have to go to bed with an empty belly.
4. I can cover myself with a clean blanket.
5. If I still need another blanket I can fetch one from the locker.

Dear readers, what are you grateful for today?

Related Post:
A Little Comparison
Let’s Open Our Eyes

Can You Feel The Pain?

This poem was nominated for the World's Best Poem of 2005 award. I am probably a little late to bring up this poem. But when I first read it a couple of days ago I was simply stunned. A little African kid has written this one. A little anonymous kid...

When I born, I black.
When I grow up, I black.
When I go in sun, I black.
When I scared, I black.
When I sick, I black.
And when I die, I still black.

And you white fella ,
When you born, you pink.
When you grow up, you white.
When you go in sun, you red.
When you cold, you blue.
When you scared, you yellow.
When you sick, you green.
And when you die, you grey …
And you calling me colored?

Correct me if I'm wrong but I think the name of this poem is "Black and White". I wonder what's the kid doing now? I hope things are better now...

Forgiveness

I wish I could write as beautifully as Melinda Tyler on this subject… after reading her post on forgiveness I was forced to think about why I couldn’t let myself to forgive others, especially me. The answer was and still is out of my reach. Maybe it’s because I am too busy with being angry. As I said before I have a really bad temper issue. Though I’m working on it the results are not very pleasing. Anger harms only you.

For the last couple of days I’ve done nothing but to blame myself for everything that’s gone wrong with me and the people around me. To be honest if I have spent half the time thinking about the solution rather then the problem I wouldn’t be in this position right now.

Why do I regret so much?

Yes, forgiveness is an art, almost close to a noble virtue. Forgiving the ones who deserve it can not only help you clean up old mess but also can help you find inner peace. And I can really use that right now.

Dear readers, I suggest that you start thinking about forgiveness. It may help you more than you expect.

Things Have Changed

For those who don’t know- I was away for a while. But now I have returned to my campus and to blogging.
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Mymensing used to be such a fan place for me. I used to love spending vacations there with my grandparents. But things have changed now. All my past experiences have been changed during this visit. I don’t think I’d like to spend another vacation there. Now I can easily describe it as an old, crowdie, smelly, dirty and congested city. It’s not like that it wasn’t congested before but now it’s just too much to stand. Houses and apartments built here are so unplanned and so extremely close (as if ‘near’) to each other that any outsider can easily get disgusted just by looking at them.
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People there care little about lakes, trees and sewerage system. Roads and drains are filled with rubbish. Almost all of them just care about constructing their home sweet home (what about maintaining?). They don’t seem to spare just a tiny fraction of the space available- uff…disgusting!
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Just a few cars and buses are seen in the roads of Mymensing (though it’s a not-so-small city). I’m pretty sure it's because it is extremely hard to drive there as thousands and thousands of Rickshaws (a special kind of man powered vehicle- slow and small) rule the roads. But having less motorized vehicles has its benefit- low air pollution.
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Sorry if I hurt someone through this post. My intention is not to curse Mymensing but to point out some things those are destroying this used-to-be-a-beautiful city.
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